Jenny Weaver is smart and funny and so lonely it hurts.

Jenny and Richard Weaver were going to live happily ever after. Then Richard took his life.

A year after Richard’s death Jenny impulsively moves from the Northeast to California with their two young children, hoping for a fresh start. The children adjust to the move, but she can’t seem to find her way.

When she meets people in California and they ask about her husband, she tells them she is a widow. Then she lowers her eyelids to let them know that his death is too recent to discuss. Most people get the message and don’t ask more questions.

But the children aren’t put off by her lowered eyelids. They are asking about their daddy. They want to know how-and-why Daddy died, and she doesn’t know what to tell them.

In a moment of deep frustration and loneliness, Jenny begins writing to Richard, sharing her most intimate thoughts. She writes about her daily life—bullying at work, the difficulties of being a single parent, and after some hesitation, a new romance.

Jenny also writes about the past. She looks back at their marriage and family life, and begins to see how it went wrong. As she gets closer to the truth and the past becomes threatening, she decides not to write to him anymore. But she finds it impossible to stop. The answer to their children’s questions is in the past, and she can’t hide from the truth forever.

In this intimate, compelling novel, a young widow discovers her own strength and identity after the devastating loss of her husband. Realities was a selection of the Swedish Book-of-the-Month Club.

Read an excerpt here.

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Book cover showing suicide’s widow writing to her dead husband while images of him and their children hover above her.

What Readers Are Saying

“The book is by turns humorous, witty, moving, upbeat. Jenny is a warm, sensitive heroine. It’s a pleasure to watch her and a privilege to eavesdrop on her thoughts. Highly recommended…”
Marilyn Lockhart, LIBRARY JOURNAL
“The author endows Jenny and her circle with attributes that make them linger in one’s memory.”
Publishers Weekly
“Realities is an intricate and satisfying novel.”
“A compelling and stunningly written book…”
“Realities is extremely well written, with deft character portrayals and scenes that ring true in dialogue, narrative and description.”
“…I skipped chores to finish it. A grown-up read.”
Linda Willett
“It was well written, and surprisingly enjoyable.”
Colette Wimmer
“This story is unique, entirely told in letters from Jenny to her late husband. I like the different style. I was invested in the story and the characters, and was sympathetic to the situation that the characters were in. Good read!”
“ Ms. Schwartz has chosen to use an extensive letter to the husband who chose suicide as a way to tell the story. I found this highly believable as well as readable.”
“This was a really good book. I am happy I found it and look forward to more from this author.”
Carol Jaeger
“I was captivated and could not put this down because I couldn’t wait to find out what happened next.”
“It was very well written and I would recommend it.”
Hope Sonntag
“ She honestly explores the feelings of her characters, their high and lows, joys and sorrow. A not to be missed read!”
“…the writing is absolutely superb! It was definitely a page turner for me, keeping me up long past bedtime, simply because I had to read just a bit more… Thanks for a great read!”
Nana Flutist